I have so many things that I must be doing right not but I can't. My 5 year autistic son cant seem to fall asleep and my mind is racing. I am fixer and I spend my time fixing things and looking for solutions to problems. So you can imagine that I have been researching and trying to fix this for him.Today, I realized that I was not in control, I cant cure or fix this. I can help him and provide the service he needs but I am not in control. That is difficult thing for me to do as a mother and a type A personality. I see how this is affecting my family, marriage and our daily life. It is the most difficult thing to see your child in chaos. I want so much for him to be who he is destined to be. I think that he is a brilliant child who just cant see the world the way we want him to.
So today I realized I am not in control, I got down on my knees and prayed for him. I prayed for us
Blessings K
